10/6/2015 0 Comments Well Said..."Hi guys!
Sorry about this, first of all, because I know I’ve made a weird post like this previously, but I felt that it was necessary in some way. Because if I don’t get any of this out through a rushed, rambling post, then I’d be stuck with some deep stuff on my mind. Of course, many of you won’t care to read any of this - which, let me remind you, is completely okay. We all have lives and even if we don’t (hah funny), we choose to use our time for things that matter to us, and sometimes really long facebook posts aren’t exactly that. So yeah! Don’t worry about it if you scroll past this. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about was that I’ve gathered that a lot of people in my life are really, really sad. It’s a bummer really, and I feel like not many people really care to mention it. This is actually pretty draining to type up considering I should probably be using my time more wisely for things that are important like that calc project or my speech and debate stuff, but nonetheless. People are sad, and sometimes, they’re /really/ sad. You know, like, depression and stuff. But I’m not here to talk about that since it’s a pretty touchy subject for a lot of people; I’m more so here to just mention things that quite a few people I know don’t hear enough. From reading the stories of suicide attempts sprouting up from absolutely nowhere and hearing the lives of people like Marcus Wheeler and Leelah Alcorn and all the people (but especially teenagers) falling victim to what may have seemed like the easy way out, I’ve become, more-or-less, hyperaware of what I say to others, and how they’re feeling. It’s a really odd thing to bring up, honestly, but I’m serious! Everyone has meaning and everyone has life and chances and opportunity and there’s no one who deserves feeling like the world doesn’t need them or that their futures are hopeless. There are always the negative parts of humanity and the world in general that make living seem like something completely fruitless. I see people with scars on their arms and fabricated smiles on their lips and I hear them saying the words, “don’t worry about it” as if what they’re experiencing is something so unimportant that even their closest friends wouldn’t know about it. Because although I of all people wouldn’t be one to understand the absolute excruciating pain you must be in to harm yourself, I can only imagine that you must be at an awful point in your life (obviously) and I want to be able to do something about that. I am so, so sorry to all of you who have done this, and to all the people who think about it often. Emotional pain is so terribly agonizing, and we don’t acknowledge that as a society because there is so, so much negative social stigma surrounding it. It’s almost impossible to respond a simple question of “how are you” with “terrible” or “awful” because the only response you’d get nowadays would be something along the lines of, “wait what?” or “oh, man” along with maybe a long, pitiful look and a “do you want a hug?” Even now, I don’t know how many people relate to what I’ve just mentioned, or can look at that and say “yeah, I know that already,” but that’s the thing. We don’t talk about (our) negativity nearly enough for people to know just how many people are experiencing that same level of emotional pain that so many others are feeling as well. Of course I can’t go and name off people I know, but I can only let you know that so many people are afflicted with an overwhelmingly immense amount of stress and pain and sorrow, and it is such a terrible shame. I feel like you can know almost everything about a person except the pain that they’re feeling - the pain they’re keeping from you - and they wouldn’t feel close to you for that reason. Everyone goes through hard times where close relatives die or break-ups happen or maybe they don’t even have a “real” conflict but they feel so messed up inside that it's a real medical problem. It’s just that it’s so important that we pay attention to each other, and that we take care of each other. No one’s weak for experiencing a hard time, and no one’s strong enough to handle burden upon burden without talking about it. I’m not saying you have to shout at people that your childhood best friend is gone from your life now and you feel an odd, gaping hole in your chest because you’ve lost a strong connection to someone, but I’m saying that everyone experiences emotional anguish, and it wouldn’t hurt to confide in someone. And if it does hurt, meaning they tell you you’re weak for opening up about something, stay away from them, because hell if you need that kind of toxicity in your life. So, basically, if you’re going through something terrible or awful, please talk about it. Please confide in someone you trust. Please tell someone. You, whoever is reading this and had the patience of looking through all of my weirdly emotional thoughts, are so incredibly important. Your feelings and thoughts are valid and there is no one that can tell you that the pain that you’ve experienced isn’t “enough” to be important. NO matter the amount of pain you may be experiencing, you deserve a shoulder to lean on and a friend to trust. If you feel like there isn’t anyone there for you, trust me, there’s always going to be someone there (like me! definitely talk to me if something’s going on, okay? I care way too much about people, it’s probably a problem). Also, I’ve been talking mostly about suicide and self-harm, but I wanted to let you guys know that cases where you need someone to lean on don’t have to be when you’re this desperate or depressed to the point where you feel like hurting yourself is even an option. To be honest, the sooner you talk to someone about what’s troubling you, the better, and I just wanted to let y’all know that it’s okay to feel bad or sad, but it’s important as hell to tell someone how you’re feeling. Because I know we try to hide it, we try to cover up how much we despise our over or underweight self, or how we hate our grades, our hair, our freckles, our skin, ourselves. We say the small, belittling things to ourselves, and I see it so often. I see people fleetingly mentioning things like, “god, I hate myself” or “shit, sorry I’m so dumb” or “I’m so fat” or “I’m so weak”, etc. It’s saddening and it’s heartbreaking because sometimes we can only see the beauty in others but never ourselves. Sorry for being so dAMN emotional at 1:21 in the morning, but I really, really do care about you guys - about everyone. Thank you so much for reading if you did! Also, I may add more things onto this post tomorrow? Depending on how much I want to edit this. But yes, please take away the message that you are so important and dear to many people. You mean a bunch to so many people, and you deserve to love yourself. And if this post meant almost nothing to you, if you're already confident in yourself and you love yourself, go you, honestly. Because that seems like a struggle that a majority of people seemingly can't overcome." -Feona Dong I don't really have anything to say about this... just wanted to share it.
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10/3/2015 0 Comments Hey!Ok... Just noticed that I haven't typed up a welcome/hello post. So, here it is! I was going to write a post about something, but I completely forgot what it was going to be about, so I'm writing this. So, this blog is mostly about my theories and whatever news I have that I am involved in, my opinions on topics, and other news. I'm fairly new at this, so don't judge... Among other news, I have some posts I'm going to post, so be sure to look for them! -Hans Am I really anonymous? "Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible" -Francis of Assisi |
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